"I hope you recognize me"

I used to to feel so strong, I was foolish enough to believe I could shape oceans.

I used to feel so light. I thought I could walk across them.

I used to feel so light that it would have been a senseless act for darkness to show it's face.

I used to feel like the funniest man alive. Fuck faces, I made your heart smile.

I used to remember the smallest thing, like your birthmark and what it is shaped like.

I used to feel invincible

I used to feel free.

I used to feel your love.

I used to feel together our love intimidated everyone.

I used to feel we were a inspiration to new love, and a sweet memory worth a smile to old.

I used to feel timeless.

I used to feel like it was okay to get lost in your eyes, and find myself in your heart.

I used to...

I used to have the opinion formed that even my best wasn't enough, so I will always be better.


I used to be a fool, foolishly in love.

I used to be hopeless hopelessly in love.

I used to know you.

I'd hope you'd remember me.


I hope you would look at the monster and see the beauty.



-LOVEsoldier

LOVEsoldier

I was lost in being found some where in between Love and Insanity. Cruising at 150mph. I love her so much like crazy, she even tortures me in my solitude. A fuzzy screen in a clear mind. But me. I am Love's Soldier and my name..... is Love Soldier. I fight until even fighting is futile.
Love is pain, pain is war, and Love is war and I am a Soldier of it. A soldier for her. I face her greatest fears daily so she won't have to. Love is a soldier and it is a superior on my team. I am Love's Soldier.
Love betrayed me though. It's hard getting back to Love when your love has been betrayed. But I am Love's Soldier.
Half way through Insanity. Love whispered in my ear. "I dare you" I violently twist my throttle back and go a lot faster. Lights turn to blurs, bugs to paint balls, and rocks to bullets. Words into knives, and actions into guns. I think "I will win" I twist a little harder thinking control is so over-rated. Chaos is where I wanted to be. Controlled Chaos inside Love's war. I am Love's Soldier.
I just wanted to be her savior. Not to be a war hero. Just save her. From anything and everyone. 10 miles from Reality I confided in the speed and put all my fear in slowing down. I guess I was running. Love is a bitch with bad intentions. But to assault it is to break my promise to me my promise to the Corps of Love. So I embrace the oncoming death of me. The death of Love's Soldier.
I am Love's Soldier, but love changed up on me, chewed me up, swallowed me, pooped me out, and threw me against a wall. I still fought. Reaching Reality bought me to a sudden stop. From 260 to 0. Reality said to me " Love Soldier, a soldier knows no quit. A death is not glorious if you plan on hiding in it. No one will remember you. Believe in the contradiction of man. Love, Peace, Anarchy. Replace that love with you Love... Soldier. Be love, free love. Demand peace. Live your Anarchy, controlled chaos.
I was Love's Soldier. I am LOVEsoldier